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November 6th, 2005
02:34 pm
well its been at least like5 months since i last wrote in here..lol
im in college ive been pretty busy with everything so i havent had time to update..i rele have nuttin to say im rele tired actually..
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July 15th, 2005
11:55 pm
well its been f.o.r.e.v.e.r since i last updated my journal..well most importantly i GRADUATED FROM HIGH SCHOOL...I NEVER HAVE TO GO BACK TO NFA AGAIN...IT FEELS SOO GOOD. i made it finally no one thought i would do it but i did.but that was like a few weeks ago...now im in college and im taking two summer courses this summer its great...i have been studying so hard..i feel like a nerd..but i guess it pays off cauase i got my exam bak and i got an A a 92 the second highest in the class..i was rele happy about that...im living with my sister and athena now for the summer untill i start sorming in the fall.i havealot on my hands right now..but im doin good..thats all that matters i guess...i havent heard from anyone in a while..i know im never online but im gonna try to more often.
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June 3rd, 2005
12:11 pm
i finally got my incentive to do well. i got a call from admissions at the mount and she told me she already had the meeting with randy( the person that decides weather u go to the skool or not) well yea and he says all i have to do is when im done with the summer course bring him my report card and if i got a b or better im in and i was sooo excited...i rele have to do good in thease classes my summer is gonna be spent working hard on thease courses fuck everything else. i rele wanna shoot for an A...i can do it i kno i can..im not gonna have my stressfull ass father and no job so ill be doing well. i cant wait im graduating in a few weeks..everything is coming so fast im soo excited...
i needed a 90 in math to graduate and pass for the year and he calculated it out today and i got a 90.5...im sooo fucking excited/!!!!....im sooo proud that i did it and he said now i just have to work on my attendence untill the end of the year....omg im sooooo happy life is goin good for me.
2005 SENIORS!!!!!..WOHOOOO WE OUTTA HERE BABY!!!!! SOON..LOL
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May 31st, 2005
11:44 am
i got pre-excepted to mount saint mary college...i have to take a summer course this summer and then ill be full accepted...but im sooo excited...i cant belive it..i actually am going to a college and not a community college. my life is going really well right now and im really happy. im all caught up on my work in skool i mean its alot that im doing tho...i feel my life is changing and that i am changing...i just need to make the right choices....
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May 24th, 2005
09:27 am
im emotionally like drained all of a sudden like ..i dont kno what to do bout anything...i kno i like tanya..and she like dosent even talk to me anymore cause shes like rele busy doin shit down in long island..but she like still dosent kno how i feel and i wanna like scream...and i get like madd at her and then when i hea her voice im like im not madd anymore...lol but she rele didnt do anything to me its just that im sooo madd that shes there and like i wannt her to feel the same as me and its like not possile...errrr..
ciara lkes me and it makes me madd cause the way she likes me is the sme way i wish tanya felt about me...errr idk...i might give it a chance..idk..
oh man i have underground 2 now and it is my shit...ive been playin it alot latley and im determined to beat tanya in it..lol
i have madd work to do......im out...1
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May 18th, 2005
09:31 am
im workin madd hard on graduatin...i hope i do...well i am i have to..im doin all this work to catch up its soo fucking stressful..
i miss tanya..shes only been gone for a week but still...i mran i dont think i rele miss her that much because i talk to her all the time still like she calls me every day and every night be 4 i go to bed...shes sopposed to be comin up this week sometime i cant wait to see her. i feel myself not being as nervous around her anymore like on the phone im not like completley quiet like scared to speak..lol im alot better now. i cant wait untill im like completley myself and comfortable around her. she rele is amazing..oh man every time i think about it i get all butterflies in my stomach..lol
ciara is talkin to me again we werent friends for a min but now were bak to talkin...she dosent wanna be wit des but she feels like shes forced to be with her because dez says if she breaks up with her then shes gonna kill herself. its crazy...i kno how ciara feels but i also kno how dez feels at the same time...i went threw it...it sucks i kinda feel bad.
i worked last night and it sucked anf it was rele slow i only made like 40 $ i got aother job too at anthonys pier 9 i start on frieday...i cant wait to start makin more money...im sooo madd that my money got stolen the other day...350 dollars just down the drain.ughhh but whateva im not stressin it anymore.
ohh mann tell me how every1 thinks im like tryin to get with paul and it aint even like that at alll..helloo im fuckin gay i dont like boys we are just friends nothing more so now tiana is madd at me cause shes friends with julie pauls ex and she thinks its wrong for me to chill with him...whateva . .ive known him for madd long and i knew him way be 4 his girl even knew he exsisted...but whateva...girls love to talk let me tell you.
i cant wait to get my apartment...but heather acting like we have years to figure this out when its coming up rele soon...and we need to get shit together.
wow im rele gonna miss ariel when they move to florida...i keep thikin about it..thats my girl..shes my lil sister..i have soo much fun with her and just laugh its crazy..lol weve hadd soo many good times..weve been threw madd shit livin together..oh man im gonna miss her alot. everytime i think about it i start to tear up...lol i wish she could stay.
aight im out 1
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May 10th, 2005
08:55 am
its been a min since i last been on here...damn..lol
tanya leaves today to go bak home and im like rele upset...of course when i meet someone they have to leave...but she says that shell be be up here alot once she gets settled...im gonna miss her sooo much...shes amazing in like every little way..we hung out last night it was great..oh man..ne ways
yea i smoke like every day now..lol whats goin on..am i a pot head or what?..lol i rele need to stop tho...today will prolly be the last day..lol i say that every day.. but yea im gonna go now ill update another time...im out 1
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April 29th, 2005
09:35 am
im in sucha good mood today..i dont kno why..lol im soo happy..i chilled with tanya last night we smoked then i went home..i dont think there ever is i night im home be 4 12..lolheather saved me this mornin she showed up i was still sleepin so she went to dunkin donuts and brought me a coffee and i was actually in skool on time....lol well im in class so im out...1
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April 28th, 2005
09:48 am
madd tired didnt get home till late last night...still fuckin high from last night...i hung out with tanya and her friend..we were all rele high it was crazy...just stuck..lol
laurens in town and shes been here all week and she still hasnt came and saw me...shes busy she says..im rele upset cause i didnt get to see her but i guess i can try to see her be 4 she leaves if not maybe for the gay parade?
wow i rele forgot what i was just about to say..lolthis fuckin coffee isnt working for shit....i had 2 cups already and i feel more tired then when i woke up this morning...
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April 27th, 2005
05:26 pm
so yea...im in the lab again..just got out of aquinas...and i was enjoying my meal untill athena..said yea she def just walked in and my stomach just dropped..yea there went my lunch..lol
skool is goin good soo far...ive been goin to all my classes..and as we speak im workin on some essays for debate..lol im sooo glad its over in like 30 days..oh man..yea i have nuttin else tor rele say right now i have alot of work to do soo....im goin bye bye
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April 25th, 2005
04:47 pm
i have a my space now.....i finally figured it out..lol
http://www.myspace.com/14279226 ....chek it out
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03:06 pm
basics…
:x: name: Amanda
:x: height: 5”5 and 3 quarters
:x: shoe size: 6
:x: hair color: brown
:x: siblings: older sister younger sister older brother
:x: eyes: hazelish brown
:x: college: msmc
:x: highschool: nfa
:x: elementary::x: taft
:x: favorite place: nyc
:x: favorite soda: I don’t rele like soda
:x: game system: playstation 2
:x: favorite food: alot
:x: favorite book: don’t know
:x: favorite pen: comfy sqishy pens
:x: favorite car: Nissan altima
:x: favorite animal: dog
:x: waterbrand: fiji
:x: favorite burger place: white menna
:x: favorite hobby: ..idk
:x: favorite friends heather allie lauren
:x: bar or club: joes so far besides the fact there is too many straight people
:x: favorite vitamins: prolly the chewable ones
:x: favorite show:ashlee simpson show..newlyweds..making the band 3 :x: favorite news: good news
:x: gold or silver: both
:x: favorite dog: kewey mah kenut
:x: cell phone co.: fuck nextel
:x: favorite shirt: idk
:x: favorite sport: Lets put it this way- idk
:x: favorite alcohol: probably 151..but I also like 99 black berries..and Hennessey..lol I love all alchohol..lol
:x: favorite computer: a fast one
:x: favorite fruit: strawberries
:x: favorite song: mr lonely..lol idk
:x: ketchup or salsa: ketchup
:x: favorite milkshake:.vanilla no wait choclate..idk all kinds..blizzards are yummy
:x: steak or lobster: chicken
:x: favorite color:I don’t know actually…pastel colors
:x: favorite weather: spring/summer
:x: favorite state: new york
you…
:x: have a crush on someone: yes I do very much so…lol
:x: wish you could live somewhere else: no
:x: think about suicide: no :x: believe in online dating: no
:x: think others find you attractive: I don’t kno..some do
:x: want more piercings: yea..i think so just my cartalige in my ear I think
:x: like cleaning: when im in the mood
:x: like roller coasters: yes I love them
:x: write in cursive or print: print
:x: last talked to: ariel
:x: last thought of: tonya
:x: last showered: this morning
:x: last cut your nails: I bite them all the time
:x: last did laundry: in fl
:x: last hugged a tree: in florida
:x: last watched anime: ?
:x: last prayed: on the plane
for or against…
:x: long distant relationships: idk it depends…its very hard
:x: killing people: against
:x: teenage smoking: idk..do you
:x: driving drunk: against
:x: gay/lesbian relationships: woohooh yes im all for it baby
:x: soap operas: I guess
have you…
:x: ever cried over a girl: Yes.
:x: ever been in a fist fight: idk
:x: ever been arrested: yes
:x: ever had a friend die: no
:x: ever dated a cousin:no ew..lol
:x: ever used a gun: no
:x: ever frenched kiss: yes
:x: ever finished a puzzle: no
:x: ever got surgery: no
:x: ever got beat up: no
:x: ever hated someone: yesssss
:x: ever made a huge mistake: yes
:x: ever tried any drugs: yes
:x: ever jogged a mile: yes
:x: ever played w/ someone’s feelings: yea…sorry
:x: ever had feelings for someone young: no
what…
:x: shoes do you wear: uptowns
:x: are you scared of: rats and planes
:x: do you sleep in: whatever
:x: did you eat for lunch: didn’t eat lunch
:x: is love: a bitch..
number…
:x: of times I have had my heart broken?: 1
:x: of hearts I have broken?: 1
:x: of girls I have kissed?: 1 does Brittany count?..lol
:x: of boys I have kissed?: 1 didn’t rele count tho I was young and it was just a peck
:x: of guys/girls you've rejected?: alot
:x: of drugs you taken: 1..and whatever was laced in that weed the one time..so 2
:x: of accidents you been in: 1
:x: of people you lead on?: lol a couple of people
:x: of people you broke up with?: none
do you think you are…
:x: attractive: hmm..not rele
:x: funny: idk..people say I am
:x: hot: ..nah
:x: friendly: yea
:x: ugly: I feel like that sometimes
:x: loveable: yes
:x: caring: yesss
:x: dorky: Yea
:x: cocky: sometimes
:x: girly: yea
:x: boyish: when I want to be
:x: smart: Not quite.
:x: pimp: oh yea..lol
:x: angel: Not even close.
:x: gangster: ..lol oh yea..keepin it gangsta..
:x: god: hell yea
favorite…
:x: five letter word: fuckk
:x: comedian: that gay girl
:x: candy: idk
:x: cartoon: spongebob
:x: cereal: cinnamon toast crunch
:x: chewing gum: alot
:x: day of week: friday
:x: least fave day: idk
:x: jello flavor: I only like jello shots
:x: summer/winter: summer
:x: trampolines or swimming pools: pools
person who last…
:x: slept in your bed: me
:x: saw you cry: heather
:x: made you cry: my x
:x: you went to the movies with: my x
:x: yelled at you: dad
:x: sent you an email: no 1
have you ever…
:x: said "i love you" and meant it?: Yes.
:x: gone out in public in your pajamas?: yea..
:x: kept a secret from everyone?:yes
:x: cried during a movie?: Yes. The notebook…best movie ever
:x: ever at anytime owned new kids on the block:my brother did
:x: planned your week based on the TV Guide?: no
:x: been on stage?: Yes.
:x: been to New York?: ummm yea..i live here
:x: been to California?: No…I want to tho
:x: been to Florida?: Yes.
:x: Hawaii?: no
:x: China?: No.
:x: Canada?: No.
:x: Europe?: Yes.
:x: apples or bananas?: Bananas.
:x: blue or red?: Red.
:x: walmart or target?: wal mart
:x: spring or fall?: spring
:x: what are you gonna do after you finish this?: smoke
:x: what was the last meal you ate?: cereal this morning
:x: are you bored?: Yes.
:x: last noise you heard?: people typing
:x: last smell you sniffed?: weed
:x: last time you went out of state/province?: a few days ago fl
friendship/love…
:x: do you believe in love at first sight?: In some way.
:x: do you want children one day & if so, how many?: not for a long time
:x: most important thing to you in a friendship is?: trust…
random stuff…
:x: criminal record?: no
:x: do you speak any other languages?: no
:x: name some of your favorite things in your bedroom?: Bed…stereo..candles
:x: piercings and where?: ears..tounge belly button
:x: worst feeling in the world?: heart broken..
:x: whom you love: me
your…
:x: nickname(s): manda
:x: initials: ama
:x: how old do you look?: idk now that I have short hair younger…lol
:x: how old do you act?: my age…it depends..when where?..sober or not..lol
:x: glasses/contacts?: nope
:x: braces: long time ago
:x: do you have any pets?: yes
:x: you get embarrassed?: yess
:x: what upsets you?: alot
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02:13 pm
last day of spring break....but i think mine might be a lil longer than others this year...im at msmc again in the computer lab...i need to get a job and start saving for my apartment...and i hope that heather will be my roomate or else i will have to search for a roomate wich i dont want to do rele..that scares me.
i need to start my diet again...i gained more weight of course...i was doing soo good be 4 then i went to florida.....ughhhh
my friend lauren is nooo where to be found up the in new hampshire.....i email her i write to her i call her and shes never like available...wtf??..its w/e i guess..
i got madd weed from my dad woohoo..its great having a pot head for a fuckin father...lol
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April 22nd, 2005
06:32 pm
hish as fuck...damn.
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April 20th, 2005
11:14 am
i am back from fuckin florida...THANK GOD.... i hated it there...i had sucha bad time except for when me and heather were hangin out and stuff...but my moms a fuckin bitch and scott oh man..hes a fuckin trip....she told me to go fuck myself and never to speak to them again..so thats what i am doing....we were sopposed to come home a week from now but my mom and scott threw us out and we had to find a ride to the airport somehow and change our flight...but somehow we managed to do all this..and i made it bak to new york...i love new york....u dont relize how great it is untilll u leave....its sooo much diffrent there its like another world..a fuckin hick hot world....
now i just have to wait for my applications to come bak and then go from there...look for an apartment roomates or whatevver...im sooo excited..i have sooo much to say but i dont feel like typin ..lol
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April 13th, 2005
02:51 pm
last night was the best night in my life...lol i hung out with tonya it was great..she cooked and we played games and stufff...i was like in sucha daze when i was there..lol shes amayzing...and now i leave tommarow for florida...im sooo madd....i wont see her for almost 2 weeks...err
i have her livestrong bracelt...im keepin it..lol..ooo im like sooo happy righgt now....
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April 12th, 2005
02:41 pm
im in the computer lab at the mount...i came here to do some work..i have alot of shit to do for this 4th markin period..i need to get like 90s in all of my clases in order to graduate..oh mannn soooo fuckin stressfull....well actually the only class im rele doin bad is in math...i hate math..it should just die!!
i have to pack and i still havent even started lookin at clothes to put in a suitcase...im rele not lookin foward to going anymore....idk it sounds stupid i know but ever sice tonya i dont wana leave anymore cause i wanna talk to her...and i kno im not gonna be able to talk to her while im there...
im still trying to figure out what i am going to say to my mom when i tell her that i am not moving to florida anymore. shes gonna fuckin flip out....and rele i dont feel like hearing it...it should be my desicion ...its like thanks for the offer but id rather stay here...
me and heather are gettin a apartment together in july...if anyone is looking for a roomate...let me know!
i miss tonya ..she hasnt been online in a few days...im goin crazy over here thinking about her...i hope shes ok.
Current Mood: that bubbly mood
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April 11th, 2005
04:18 pm
im in the library again...with no 1 online that i can talk to.
i went tanning today with heather....we leave in 2 days and i didnt even start packing yet..
i miss tonya!!!!!!ok i think im ready to talk to her now...its all i can think about but i know that once it come time to see her...im gonna see her and just crumble again..lol
i applied to the mount today and they said i have a good chance in gettin in and i have an interview with the guys that says who goes here or not and i have a interview on the 26 im soooo excited!!! oh and i also applied to dutchess just incase i dont get in....im sooo excited man!!!
fuck florida...im from NEW YORK!!!!!...
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April 10th, 2005
03:39 pm
ok i feel like i cant communicate with anyone.....laurens like dead up there in new hampshire cause i swear shes impossible to contact!!!!...and just everyone else is never online anymore....so im like completey bored over here with nothing to do and no 1 to talk to man!!!...
im sooo hungry right now and my stomach is like grawling rele loud....im in the ;library and its kind of embarresing cause its sooo loud...im trying not to eat as much im goin to florida in afew days and i need to loose some weight ..no one wants a fat girl!!!..lol
anyways i have made a decision that i dont want to move to florida with my mom anymore...im a new york girl i cant move down to fuckin hick florida..ill be bored out of my mind...and i have a feeling that its not gonna be too much fun in the house with mom and scott....i heard that scott was like im gonna straighten her out and she has to prove herself to us be 4 she is alowed to drive.....wtf?? i am not being controlled by anyone so i think im gonna stay up here and get an apartment with some friends or somethin...heather already offerd so i think this is what i am going to do...i am staying here..so if anyone is going to get an apartment also tell me!!
the only problem is telling my mom that i am not coming down there...shes gonna flip the fuck out when she finds out..lol shes got like my whle life planned already for me...lol shes like yup right after graduation ur on the the next plane down here...ummm can i fuckin breathe???...can i fuckin live and enjoy the fact that i am actually graduating before u ship me away....fuck that im not going anywhere now..lol
i was planning on transferin up here afdter my first year in college anyway...this is just a lil sooner..
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01:37 pm
so here i am in the library again...i miss talkin to tonya...and shes never online ..i need to get some balls and just meet her already...im sucha punk...i like this girl alot...thats all i can think about is her...well i have nuttin else to say for now ill write bak later
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